I’m lucky to be in a place in life where I can go to therapy regularly. It started a few years ago when traumatic events entered my life. After months of coming to terms with the horrors, I found myself in a new but recognizable place. I had arrived…
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Drawing Grief and Loss
Every week I join this lovely therapy group over Zoom and each week is a thematic exercise. This week we were asked to draw what our grief looked like when the loss happened and what it looks like now. I also learned that grief means the internal reactions we do…
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Secretly Living Trauma, Dealing with Covert Avoidance
In looking into the anxious side of ambivalent attachment, I was really struck by the idea of covert avoidance strategies. Right now with my therapist I’m working through what strategies I use to deal with the world in a way that is so automatic, I don’t even know I’m doing…
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Waking Up in the ICU
Eight years ago I woke up in the ICU after three days of being sedated in a coma on a ventilator. I reflect on that experience.
Why I Started a GoFundMe for Mental Health
I decided to create a GoFundMe out of exasperation. It’s been five months of back to back EMDR and neurofeedback sessions and I was tired of AETNA rejecting my claims on trivial matters every time. In the midst of another rejection due to simple errors, I was sick of it…
How COVID Tipped My Mental Health Over the Edge
The news of 1 in 5 people being diagnosed with a mental disorder after testing positive for COVID-19 really shouldn’t be shocking. Disease itself is a traumatic event for anyone. Broken legs and flus are easily stored memories by your mind so that you may try to avoid them in…
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Curing My Soul with EMDR
I can’t even begin to describe what has happened to me in just the past few months. The stress of Covid, lockdowns, social isolation, and being stuck in a place I didn’t quite desire culminated in daily panic attacks. Certainly I always had a high baseline of generalized anxiety, but…